Nāk miegs! -šodien ta vien gribas gulēt. No rīta ap 6šiem cēlos, lai varētu uz Ascot's Carboot sale aizbrukt, bet vakar vakarā kā jau parasti filmu skatījāmies...
Saulīte!- Vakar biju uz Paultons Family Theme Park. Maziem ( Džonijam un Adam) jau patika, arī es nesūdzos.. bet nu vairs uz Sky Swingeru diez vai gribēsies iet, un par ūdens atrakcijām arī netīkas domāt. + apdedzināju rokas, tagad netikai piektdienas apdedzinātā mugura sāp, bet arī rokas un SEJA!!!!(sick)
Pulkstens!- Kāpēc pulkstens rāda tikai 2pm? Man tā vien liekas, ka ir jau 6pm vai nu pēc maniem aprēķiniem vajadzētu būt 7pm, tā....
Gaidīšānas ''prieks''! - Nemaz nepatīk gaidīt. Negaidu pirmdienu, gaidu otrdienu, tad gaidu piektdien un nemaz negaidu svētdienu. Gaidu savu pasūtījumu (no rotufabrikas.lv). Negaidu vēstules no student finance. Gaidu savu brīvo nedēļu, negaidu kad tā beigsies. Gaidu savas pusdienas, nemaz negaidu kad man viņas būs jātaisa.. Tāds tas gaidīšanas ''prieks'' ir.
Kurpes!- nu kāpēc man te ir 7 kurpju pāri, kurus nemaz negribas vilkt? Kāpēc vasaras kurpes ir pie mammas, bet pavasara joprojām te? Vai tik tas nebūs bijis sen,kad es pie mammas biju?(whistle)
Monday, 6 June 2011
Tuesday, 31 May 2011
Au Pair updates!
So I have been here for over 6 months and it is just 3 more to go. 3 more months until I start University, 3 more months until I leave my au-pair life. :) It has been so much fun.
Adam did his SAT's test, and hopefully he will get good grades, he and Johnny both have got places at schools David and Dii wanted them to go to :) + I will see Johnny on his first school day, really looking forward it. He will look amazing in his school uniform. :)
Boys are amazing, I will really miss them when I leave, but luckily I live just in another city not country, which will give me possibilities to visit them every now and then :).
Weather here is lovely, of course only in weekdays, is normal to rain over weekends hehehe.. but no I am not complaining. I love when its raining in summers, it always leaves this fresh smell/feeling/air outside.. you know what I am on about now :)
Adam did his SAT's test, and hopefully he will get good grades, he and Johnny both have got places at schools David and Dii wanted them to go to :) + I will see Johnny on his first school day, really looking forward it. He will look amazing in his school uniform. :)
Boys are amazing, I will really miss them when I leave, but luckily I live just in another city not country, which will give me possibilities to visit them every now and then :).
Weather here is lovely, of course only in weekdays, is normal to rain over weekends hehehe.. but no I am not complaining. I love when its raining in summers, it always leaves this fresh smell/feeling/air outside.. you know what I am on about now :)
Tā sajūta!
Un mani atkal pārņem tā sajūta, ka kaut kā pietrūkst, bet kā? Nu viss taču man ir, mīlošs vīrietis, ģimene, arī plāns nākošajam gadam ( Man ļoti patīk dzīvot pēc plāna, plūst pa straumi nav priekš manis. Man patīk stabilitāte un apziņa, ka rīt, nu ka rīt mani sagaida kaut kas.), bet šī sajūta nepamet mani, tāds tukšums, tāds tukšums, kas liek mana ķermenim kļut vieglam!!!!!
Lasīju ''The Zahir'' Paulo Koelju grāmatu, bet apskaidrību neguvu. Arī es, tāpāt kā vēl citi pāris tūkstošu cilvēku dažkārt nodomāju: '' Vai šīs ir viss kas dzīvē ir? Vai patiešam vairāk nekā tajā nav? Vai tā nesniegs reiz ko vairāk? Vai man tāpat kā citiem lemts ir tikai pabeigt skolu, apprecēties, dzemdēt bērnus un strādā?. Uz šiem jautajumiem atbildes ir un nav. Es nesūdzos, es vienkārši cīnos ar šo sajūtu, zinu, ka pēc dažām dienam es par šo būšu aizmirsusi, citas sadzīviskās problēmas uzradīsies un šī sajūta norimsies, līdz atkal kādu dienu tā uzradīsies un tāpat kā tagad es to klusībā pie sevis paturēšu ar carību, ka gan jau pāries. Un pāries un tā visu atlikušo dzīvi, ja vien es neatradīšu to kā pietrūkst, ja vien es to tukšumu neaizpildīšu!!!
Lasīju ''The Zahir'' Paulo Koelju grāmatu, bet apskaidrību neguvu. Arī es, tāpāt kā vēl citi pāris tūkstošu cilvēku dažkārt nodomāju: '' Vai šīs ir viss kas dzīvē ir? Vai patiešam vairāk nekā tajā nav? Vai tā nesniegs reiz ko vairāk? Vai man tāpat kā citiem lemts ir tikai pabeigt skolu, apprecēties, dzemdēt bērnus un strādā?. Uz šiem jautajumiem atbildes ir un nav. Es nesūdzos, es vienkārši cīnos ar šo sajūtu, zinu, ka pēc dažām dienam es par šo būšu aizmirsusi, citas sadzīviskās problēmas uzradīsies un šī sajūta norimsies, līdz atkal kādu dienu tā uzradīsies un tāpat kā tagad es to klusībā pie sevis paturēšu ar carību, ka gan jau pāries. Un pāries un tā visu atlikušo dzīvi, ja vien es neatradīšu to kā pietrūkst, ja vien es to tukšumu neaizpildīšu!!!
Friday, 18 February 2011
being normal?
so do you think you are normal? lets say ordinary, so are you? well if anyone of the following 46 points suits you, then yes, you are normal/ordinary/boring person. and trust me there is nothing to be proud of. so just check it out.
1.Normal is anything that makes us forget who we are and what we want; that we can work in order to produce, reproduce and earn money.
2.Setting rules for waging war ( the Geneva convention).
3.Spending years studying at university only to find out at the end of it all that you're unemployable.
4.Working form nine to five every day at something that gives you no pleasure at all just so that, after thirty years, you can retire.
5.Retiring and discovering that you no longer have enough energy to enjoy life and dying a few years of sheer boredom.
6.Using botox.
7.Believing that power is much more important than money and that money is much more important than happiness.
8.Making fun of anyone who seeks happiness rather than money and accusing them of ''lack of ambition''.
9.Comparing objects like cars, houses, clothes, and defining life according to those comparisons, instead of trying to discover real reason for being alive.
10.Never talking to strangers. Saying nasty things about the neighbours.
11.Believing that your parents are always right.
12.Getting married, having children and staying together long after the love has died, saying that it's for the good reason of the children ( who are apparently, deaf to the constant rows).
13.Criticising anyone who tries to be different.
14.Waking up each morning to an hysterical alarm clock on the bedside table.
15.Believing absolutely everything that appears in print.
16.Wearing a scrap coulored cloth around your neck, even though it serves no useful purpose, but which answers to the name of 'tie'.
17.Never asking a direct question, even though the other person can guess what it is you want to know.
18.Kepping smile on your lips even when you're on the verge of tears. Feeling sorry for those who show their feelings.
19.Believing that art is either worth a fortune or worth nothing at all.
20.Despising anything that was easy to achieve because if no sacrifice was involved, it obiously isn't worth having.
21.Following fashion trends, however ridiculous or uncomfortable.
22.Believing that all famous people have tons of money saved up.
23.Investing a lot of time and money in external beauty and caring little about inner beauty
24.Using every means possible to show that, although you're just an ordinary human being, you're far above other mortals.
25.Never looking anyone in the eye when you're travelling on public transport, in case it's interpreted as a sign you're trying to get off with them.
26.Standing facing the door in a lift and pretending you're the only person there, regardless of how crowded it is.
27.Never laughing too loudly in a restaurant however good the joke.
28.In the northern hemisphere; always dressing according to the season: bare arms in Spring (however cold it is) and woollen jacket in Autumn (however hot it is).
29.In the southern hemisphere, covering Christamas tree with fake snow even though winter has nothing to do with the birth of Christ.
30.Assuming, as you grow older, that you're the guardian of the world's wisdom, even if you haven't necessarily lived enough to know what's right and wrong.
31.Going to a charity tea party and thinking that you've done your bit towards putting an end to social inequality in the world.
32.Eating three times a day even if you're not hungry.
33.Believing that other people are always better than you – better looking, mora capable, richer, more intelligent – and that it is very dangerous to step outside your own limits, so it's best to do nothing.
34.Using your car as a weapon and as impenetrable armour.
35.Swearing when in heavy traffic.
36.Believing that everything your child does wrong is entirely down to the company he or she keeps.
37.Marrying the first person who offers you a decent position in society. Love can wait.
38.Always saying: 'I tried' wehn you didn't really try at all.
39.Postponing doing the really interesting things in life for later, when you won't have energy.
40.Avoiding depression with large daily dose of television.
41.Believing that you can be sure of everything you've achieved.
42.Assuming that women don't like football and that men aren't interested in home decoration and cooking.
43.Blaming the government for all the bad things that happens.
44.Thinking that being good, decent, respectable person will mean that others will see you as weak, vulnerable and easy to manipulate.
45.Being equally convinced that aggression and rudeness are synonymous with having a 'powerful personality'.
46.Being affraid of endoscopy (if you are a man) and giving birth (if you are a woman).
Paulo Coelho ''The Winner Stands Alone''
good luck with being ''normal'' :)
1.Normal is anything that makes us forget who we are and what we want; that we can work in order to produce, reproduce and earn money.
2.Setting rules for waging war ( the Geneva convention).
3.Spending years studying at university only to find out at the end of it all that you're unemployable.
4.Working form nine to five every day at something that gives you no pleasure at all just so that, after thirty years, you can retire.
5.Retiring and discovering that you no longer have enough energy to enjoy life and dying a few years of sheer boredom.
6.Using botox.
7.Believing that power is much more important than money and that money is much more important than happiness.
8.Making fun of anyone who seeks happiness rather than money and accusing them of ''lack of ambition''.
9.Comparing objects like cars, houses, clothes, and defining life according to those comparisons, instead of trying to discover real reason for being alive.
10.Never talking to strangers. Saying nasty things about the neighbours.
11.Believing that your parents are always right.
12.Getting married, having children and staying together long after the love has died, saying that it's for the good reason of the children ( who are apparently, deaf to the constant rows).
13.Criticising anyone who tries to be different.
14.Waking up each morning to an hysterical alarm clock on the bedside table.
15.Believing absolutely everything that appears in print.
16.Wearing a scrap coulored cloth around your neck, even though it serves no useful purpose, but which answers to the name of 'tie'.
17.Never asking a direct question, even though the other person can guess what it is you want to know.
18.Kepping smile on your lips even when you're on the verge of tears. Feeling sorry for those who show their feelings.
19.Believing that art is either worth a fortune or worth nothing at all.
20.Despising anything that was easy to achieve because if no sacrifice was involved, it obiously isn't worth having.
21.Following fashion trends, however ridiculous or uncomfortable.
22.Believing that all famous people have tons of money saved up.
23.Investing a lot of time and money in external beauty and caring little about inner beauty
24.Using every means possible to show that, although you're just an ordinary human being, you're far above other mortals.
25.Never looking anyone in the eye when you're travelling on public transport, in case it's interpreted as a sign you're trying to get off with them.
26.Standing facing the door in a lift and pretending you're the only person there, regardless of how crowded it is.
27.Never laughing too loudly in a restaurant however good the joke.
28.In the northern hemisphere; always dressing according to the season: bare arms in Spring (however cold it is) and woollen jacket in Autumn (however hot it is).
29.In the southern hemisphere, covering Christamas tree with fake snow even though winter has nothing to do with the birth of Christ.
30.Assuming, as you grow older, that you're the guardian of the world's wisdom, even if you haven't necessarily lived enough to know what's right and wrong.
31.Going to a charity tea party and thinking that you've done your bit towards putting an end to social inequality in the world.
32.Eating three times a day even if you're not hungry.
33.Believing that other people are always better than you – better looking, mora capable, richer, more intelligent – and that it is very dangerous to step outside your own limits, so it's best to do nothing.
34.Using your car as a weapon and as impenetrable armour.
35.Swearing when in heavy traffic.
36.Believing that everything your child does wrong is entirely down to the company he or she keeps.
37.Marrying the first person who offers you a decent position in society. Love can wait.
38.Always saying: 'I tried' wehn you didn't really try at all.
39.Postponing doing the really interesting things in life for later, when you won't have energy.
40.Avoiding depression with large daily dose of television.
41.Believing that you can be sure of everything you've achieved.
42.Assuming that women don't like football and that men aren't interested in home decoration and cooking.
43.Blaming the government for all the bad things that happens.
44.Thinking that being good, decent, respectable person will mean that others will see you as weak, vulnerable and easy to manipulate.
45.Being equally convinced that aggression and rudeness are synonymous with having a 'powerful personality'.
46.Being affraid of endoscopy (if you are a man) and giving birth (if you are a woman).
Paulo Coelho ''The Winner Stands Alone''
good luck with being ''normal'' :)
Wednesday, 9 February 2011
SOULMATE
''But how will I know who my Soulmate is?''
''By taking risks,'' she said to Brida. '' By risking failure, disappointment, disollusion, but never ceasing in your search for Love. As long as you keep looking, you will triumph in the end.''
I have never really thought of importance to find a soulmate until yesterday when I picked Paolo Coelho ''Brida'' up. I felt like that book was screaming at me to pick it up and read it, and I have to admit I could not stop until I read it all, it took just 3 hours and all the rest of the day was spent thinking of what are my priorities.
Everone is trying to find their ''The One'', but there are so many varieties of what ''The One'' is. World is full of surprises, for someone it's a fast car, for another its a pillow, for someone else it is just a person who completes them. I wonder if people would give up everything they have learned or everything they possessed until then – all the possibilities that the world could offer them in order to stay with the love of their life? I am pleased that until now I have never had to make such a choice because the decision would be one of the hardest I would ever have to make. Would I be able to give up my love to someone just because my material possessions or my status would be more important, I can not tell yet. They say that in your life you can meet more than one soulmate, but there is a trick though, it might take years until you meet another soulmate and, in fact, you might never meet them, which would be only reasoable. Why would someone deserve to meet more than another soulmate if they did not appriciate the first one they met. It is abotu taking risk, isn't it?
In the end of the day it is about playing our own part in this wonderful play called ''Life'', and at some point we will find our partners, people have done it for thousands of years, so being afried is a complete waste of time.
We all should take more risks, coz there is reward there always is, it's just people just can not see it, because they are way too worried about not doing the same things all over again, but why, why would anyone to repeat same actions all over again and again. If we stoped living in past in our memories, we would discover what a beautiful life they live in..
Sooo from now on, we take risks and look for that special light in people eyes, because who knows we might be looking in our soulmates eyes without even knowing that.
''By taking risks,'' she said to Brida. '' By risking failure, disappointment, disollusion, but never ceasing in your search for Love. As long as you keep looking, you will triumph in the end.''
I have never really thought of importance to find a soulmate until yesterday when I picked Paolo Coelho ''Brida'' up. I felt like that book was screaming at me to pick it up and read it, and I have to admit I could not stop until I read it all, it took just 3 hours and all the rest of the day was spent thinking of what are my priorities.
Everone is trying to find their ''The One'', but there are so many varieties of what ''The One'' is. World is full of surprises, for someone it's a fast car, for another its a pillow, for someone else it is just a person who completes them. I wonder if people would give up everything they have learned or everything they possessed until then – all the possibilities that the world could offer them in order to stay with the love of their life? I am pleased that until now I have never had to make such a choice because the decision would be one of the hardest I would ever have to make. Would I be able to give up my love to someone just because my material possessions or my status would be more important, I can not tell yet. They say that in your life you can meet more than one soulmate, but there is a trick though, it might take years until you meet another soulmate and, in fact, you might never meet them, which would be only reasoable. Why would someone deserve to meet more than another soulmate if they did not appriciate the first one they met. It is abotu taking risk, isn't it?
In the end of the day it is about playing our own part in this wonderful play called ''Life'', and at some point we will find our partners, people have done it for thousands of years, so being afried is a complete waste of time.
We all should take more risks, coz there is reward there always is, it's just people just can not see it, because they are way too worried about not doing the same things all over again, but why, why would anyone to repeat same actions all over again and again. If we stoped living in past in our memories, we would discover what a beautiful life they live in..
Sooo from now on, we take risks and look for that special light in people eyes, because who knows we might be looking in our soulmates eyes without even knowing that.
Saturday, 22 January 2011
YOU HAD ME @Eddie
It's been a tough week not only for me but for some other people. My heartache made me pick up and read this book about how to become successful, it might sound weird you would think, what a book about business strategies has to do with love. I was rather surprised how presistant I was to read all book as quick as possible, and then almost in the end of it I found something that imediately healed my broken heart. Here is what made my day brighter, here is what made me think that what happened was for the best, as we would never be happy without me changing.
If you believe yourself unfortunate because you have 'loved and lost', perish the thought. One who has loved truly can never lose entirely. Love is whimsical and tempermental. Its nature is ephemeral and transitory. It comes when it pleases and goes away without warning. Accept and enjoy it while it remains, but spend no time worrying about its departure. Worry will never bring it back.
Dismiss, also, the thought that love never comes but once. Love may come and go, times without number, but there are no two love experiences that affect you in the same way. There may be, and there usually is, one love experience that leaves a deeper imprint on the heart that all the others, but all love experiences are beneficial, except to the person who becomes resentful and cynical when love makes its departure..
There would be no dissapointment over love.
Love is spiritual.
No experience that touches human heart with spiritual force can possible be harmful,except through ignorance and jealousy.
Love is, without question, life's greatest experience.
Love is an emotion with many sides, shades and colour.
I have a long way to, lots of things to do, lost of dream to fulfill and lots of goals to reach. It wasn't the right time yet, but it was a great experience. I have faith in myself, I have faith in becoming a better person for my own sake. I have a hope that, maybe, one day our ways will cross again. I hope that this will make you move on as quick as possible, and there still is an offer to stay in touch as friends!
I have accepted your decision!
Love
Marika :) xx
If you believe yourself unfortunate because you have 'loved and lost', perish the thought. One who has loved truly can never lose entirely. Love is whimsical and tempermental. Its nature is ephemeral and transitory. It comes when it pleases and goes away without warning. Accept and enjoy it while it remains, but spend no time worrying about its departure. Worry will never bring it back.
Dismiss, also, the thought that love never comes but once. Love may come and go, times without number, but there are no two love experiences that affect you in the same way. There may be, and there usually is, one love experience that leaves a deeper imprint on the heart that all the others, but all love experiences are beneficial, except to the person who becomes resentful and cynical when love makes its departure..
There would be no dissapointment over love.
Love is spiritual.
No experience that touches human heart with spiritual force can possible be harmful,except through ignorance and jealousy.
Love is, without question, life's greatest experience.
Love is an emotion with many sides, shades and colour.
I have a long way to, lots of things to do, lost of dream to fulfill and lots of goals to reach. It wasn't the right time yet, but it was a great experience. I have faith in myself, I have faith in becoming a better person for my own sake. I have a hope that, maybe, one day our ways will cross again. I hope that this will make you move on as quick as possible, and there still is an offer to stay in touch as friends!
I have accepted your decision!
Love
Marika :) xx
Sunday, 12 December 2010
12th December
Since I updated my blog many things has happened..
Firstly, I'm still reading Benjamin Franklin's biography.
Secondly, yesterday I had an amazing day out, I went to Freeport Designer Village in Braintree, Essex and then we went to Sudbury in Suffolk, I have to say its very pink down there. Lots and lots of pink houses, but it was really lovely, I think they have amazing antique shops, and narrow streets(most of them one way only). The weather treated us nicely, although down in Sudbury it was pretty cold and you still could find bits of snow, it must be because it is situated in a valley, but as I said it was great!
Thirdly, last week I felt like getting back to school. Adam has this homework about ordering fractions, I would say that's the easiest thing in Mathematics, but an 11-year-old would say it was I unnecessary waste of time as he would never use it outside the classroom. He had a point, I know that, but studying isn't always about finding ways where to use it in daily life, it is more about understanding and possessing a quick-thinking, which would help to resolve complicated situations. It was a nice experience, I did make Adam enjoy ordering fractions, he actually spend 3 other evenings in my room playing fraction games online. FUN times :)
On Friday I am going back home for 2 weeks, looking froward it. I will meet some friends, and definitely will go to German market, I feel like I am missing out, I can't wait at all!
:)
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